Runaway Mistress

2009-08-29T01:22:00.001+08:00

1501; i miss you.

2009-07-28T14:36:00.005+08:00

SUPER DOPE SHOES, CHECK THEM OUT.

i'm gonna get this pair come payday.
I WANT THIS, Air Jordan 1 Hi-Strap!

Nike Nagoya Dunk, check 'em soles.

Cool right?

Purple version of it!

Nike AirForce 1 Bespoke

Nike Air Max Black & Pink. =))Nike Air Yeezy - Kanye West Collection

Nike Terminator High - Heavy Metal

Nike Vandal High - Heavy Metal

Super Vaider Purple.

get me any of these, and i'll love you very very much.

2009-07-20T05:56:00.002+08:00

.my 2nd day baju raya is my fave.

2009-07-16T11:50:00.002+08:00

these arguments are getting on my nerves.
and these arguments have been going on.
every single day.

i have my own commitments.
i have my recordings to complete.
i have work.
i have plenty of things to do.

time doesn't wait for anyone right?

i don't know.
i have so many things on hand.
yet so little time.

i so need more than 24hours a day right now.

2009-07-15T04:05:00.001+08:00

.my favourite song of all times.

2009-07-14T01:15:00.002+08:00

2009-07-12T11:51:00.000+08:00

friends come and go.
only a handful stay after years together.

even boyfriends go away.

i thank god.
for giving me my beautiful girls.
and not forgetting GG & Shammie.
for all the shit and beautiful moments we went through,
thank you.

and like mira said,
"Salut to good food, good life and meaningful relationships!"

I LOVE ALL MY BABIES SO SO MUCHIEEE!

2009-06-30T15:27:00.003+08:00

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you'
Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I will be there at the end of the day.

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you,
but I don't complain'
Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day.

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart
is free to spread my wings and fly
away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heartI don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
------------------------------------------------------

I can't live without you baby.
Even for just a day.
Don't ever let me walk away.

2009-06-29T01:23:00.003+08:00

arguments after arguments.

months after months.

it has finally came to an end.

the conversation we had,

the feelings we conveyed,

the understanding we had,

was all good.

i'm sorry i turned out this way.

it sucks that we're both suffering.

it sucks that we've come to this situation.

it sucks that we've learnt the true feelings.

and what we've decided on,

will still be disclosed.

just like you,

i might not be around but,

i will always be there for you too.

and i still do love you, baby.

2009-06-28T02:31:00.002+08:00

my heart is ice-cold.
it can no longer feel the warmth of your love.
maybe a lil bit.

i'm sorry.
thats all i could ever say again and again.

2009-06-12T01:10:00.005+08:00

hi, i'm megan fox. HAHAHAHHAHAHA
ok lets get wordy, shall we?

workload is piling up.
stress level has accumulated to extreme level.
deadlines are coming.
hospitals are being noisy and nosey.

hmmm,
maybe i should ask marshall to say what he love to say.
"YOUUUUU ZIIIIIIPPPPP!"

but we're making loads of friends at work.
more pinoys and indian citizens as friends.
and they're not as fucked up as i thought they were. heh.
a good end to week 3.

health-wise to those who know,
i'm getting much better by the day.
treatments, needles, pain, or even laser,
is a necessity in my life.

and to you,

i might be ill.
but i can still live life to the fullest.
and i can handle my own life.
so i dont need your sympathy if you're thinking about it.

on the other hand,
i've got the killer cough for going a week now.
fuck man.

8more days to being 20.
2more days to little sister being 16.
6more days to yani and haikal being 20 and 21 respectively.
ZOMFGZZZZZ

June has been an schmexiciting month thus far.
Can't wait for 19th June! Teeheeeee.
Peace Out. A-town yo!

2009-06-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

present for me, anyone?

2009-06-07T11:15:00.002+08:00

today's sunday.
finally i got a break from work.
menses has been killing me for 2 days straight.
I couldn't even work properly.

oh, happy june has come.
a year older, a year wiser.

that goes for alot of people.
and that means time for me to go bankrupt giving pressies.
yani, what you want for your birthday baby?
stress siolxxx.

i miss my fypj kakis.
life been not THAT fun in IPP.
Tsk.

and oh,

been hanging out with 6feet recently.
what can i say?
i'm loving them, all thanks to liyana for the introduction.
only that now tee has went for NS.
no more Mr. B.I.G for me to complain/confide to anymore.
=((

can't wait for 19th June.
Jim Beam's Dance Comp Heats.
My very own, Nona's 20-on-20.
all happening @ dbl O, party time people.

2009-06-06T11:01:00.000+08:00

red flag days are the worst.
its killing me.
-_____-"

sorrry gg and ad for not gg seoul garden.
ad, enjoy your NS days!

myra, i'll join you for homeclub another day ok!

2009-05-28T17:56:00.001+08:00

Ending everything at where we started off,
Was definitely memorable.
I'll miss you, Mr.Smoof.
Take care.
=)

2009-05-27T17:46:00.000+08:00

Teman Tapi Mesra

Aku punya teman
Teman sepermainan
Kemana ada dia
selalu ada aku

Dia amat manis
Dan juga baik hati
Dia selalu ada
Waktu untuk membantuku

Namun aku bingung
Ketika dia bilang cinta
Dan dia juga katakan
Tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

Cukuplah saja berteman denganku
Janganlah kau meminta lebih
Ku tak mungkin mencintaimu
Kita berteman sajaTeman tapi mesra
Aku memang suka pada dirimu
Namun aku ada yang punya
Lebih baik kita berteman
Kita berteman saja
Teman tapi mesra

Aku punya teman
Teman sepermainan
Kemana ada dia selalu ada aku
Namun aku bingung

Ketika dia bilang cinta
Dan dia juga katakan
Tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

Cukuplah saja berteman denganku
Janganlah kau meminta lebih
Ku tak mungkin mencintaimu
Kita berteman sajaTeman tapi mesra
Aku memang suka pada dirimu
Namun aku ada yang punya
Lebih baik kita berteman
Kita berteman saja
Teman tapi mesra

Cukuplah saja berteman denganku
Janganlah kau meminta lebih
Ku tak mungkin mencintaimu
Kita berteman sajaTeman tapi mesra
Aku memang suka pada dirimu
Namun aku ada yang punya
Lebih baik kita berteman
Kita berteman saja
Teman tapi mesra

this song is playing in my head.
nonstop, fucking addictive.
haiz.

2009-05-26T14:08:00.005+08:00

dbl O 20th Anniversary was crazy.

lets party again people.

nice performance from 6feet and 5678.

- my favourite of the night -

2009-05-18T22:28:00.002+08:00

1 2 3 , 3 2 1 , message message abuwan.

this guy has gotta be the absolute dungu in the world right now.
but its okay la.
kau act cute punya pasal.
HAHAHAHAHAA

2009-05-14T22:33:00.005+08:00

i love sleeeepovers.
i quote from syiirin, "you girls are ze best".
and pls hor, no last minute sleepover again hor hor hor.

goodbye.

2009-05-09T19:44:00.002+08:00

This is Diy.
She's like my bitching kickass msn partner.

aku dan kau, suka dancow.
dancow tu susu eh bukan dan-lembu. -__-

diy step vogue, gua punya hidong mana?

In the midst of hot gossips, we decide to camwhore, and trust me, it was totally uncalled for.

For now, sayonara.

2009-05-08T14:52:00.000+08:00

every single day in FYPJ,
i spent my lunch and breaks with 12guys.
and i'm the only girl.

you people wouldn't wanna know how sexual their mind is.

even with just two words.
and that is when i said,
"BOYS, COMEE~"
and this is what they think,
"BOYS, CUM ______."

you fill in the blank.

weekends are here.
weddings, gf, and much more fun things going on.
HURRAAAY!

2009-05-06T14:58:00.000+08:00

today was super kick-ass sia.
reached school & signed in @ 1pm.
gerek kepeee?

went for NAPHA test today.
damn sucky about it.
dan said, "tu la cakap buntot aku berat kan, look whos talking!"
don't ask. HAHAHAHA.

date with diy over @ tamp.
super duper late even with Singapore's Fastest Public Transport, MRT.
but i guess it all paid off kan diy?

when life gets hard,
what do you do?
date your bitching partner out for coffee @ Coffee Bean Tamp!

had super duper uber juicy gossips going on and on.
and there were some irritating flirtatious male eavesdropping on us.
but that didn't stop us.
heeee. =))

diy,
sorry if i talked too much.
i know you were sucking up every single juice of it.
HAHAHAHAA.
i love you woman.

lets date again!
pictures will be up in a few days.

2009-05-03T13:34:00.000+08:00

Nike Dunk Butterflies, SGD$179.

I've been looking at this pair of dunks for 2weeks in a row now.
Now now now,
should i or should i not?
Hmmm.

On the other hand,
I'm going through a shitty period.
Period.

2009-05-02T02:33:00.002+08:00

Tired
thats the exact word i'm feeling.

i'm tired of you, you, and you.
i'm tired of trying to catch-up with you.
i'm tired of always having to please everyone.
i'm tired of being the conversation starter.
i'm tired of always being the one to keep things together.
i'm tired of every single thing.
i'm tired of everyone.

You have no fuckin' idea how shitty I'm feeling right now yaw~

2009-04-23T15:47:00.002+08:00

life has been hectic so far.

- FYP Week 8
- Club Crawl '09
- OktoLive!
- Hangouts
- Late Night Chats
- Event Meetings

it has pretty much occupied my time.
i rarely have time to think negatively,
cause i am having too much fun.

sometimes maybe those things that you think are important,
they are not afterall.
you just have to prioritise.

thats what i'm doing.

"oh i think the only one that is dope is you" - anonymous.

whoever you are,
you have made my day.
you have no idea how happy i was when i read that.
teeeheeee.

sidetrack ;
i have official stayed in the lab for lesser than 2hrs today.
hooray for all of us,
for not doing our project.
0_o

2009-04-19T04:10:00.007+08:00

NEWSFLASH : WORLD BIGGGEST LIAR

my dear readers,
you have no idea how complicated she is.
and how messy my mind is right now.
ZOMGZZZ, no thanks to "her".

i've never met someone like her before.
i can't believe such a person could ever exists.
SERIOUSLY.

how could she be SO :
- extremely possesive about her friends and boyfriend
- paranoid about what others see in her that she has to give me an explanation for every single thing she said and worst still, she keeps repeating herself over and over again. -___-
- sensitive over petty stuffs such as typical sarcastic comments
- weird and ugly at the same time
- stupid for agreeing to everything i said
- contradicting to every single thing she previously say
- flirtatious that she wants every single man out there and even mine
- horny that she asked my man for pornos, hello theres porno websites!!
- unbelievably talented in twisting stories
- irresponsible for getting balloon-ed.
- good at giving of all kinds of stupid and unlogical excuses ALL THE TIME

theres a long list to it.
sumpah.

if you wanna know more,
text me.

for now,
i need to rest my mind.
or you might visit me in the hospital again.

2009-04-18T15:57:00.003+08:00

this is an entry where i vent my anger.
if you dont like it,
leave.

here i go.

insults, criticsm, sarcasm, remarks, comments, etc.
lets just put it in a way, bad-mouthing.
its the norms right?

we live in the reality world.
we live in a world thats harsh.

and if you cannot take it,
i suggest something for you.

EAT SHIT AND DIE LA!

2009-04-12T14:14:00.002+08:00

i'm back from the hospital, this morning.
my stomach is in a terrible state.
i've gotten 2 more days of MC.

and i'm referred to the gynae tmrw.
for a scan and consultation.
i felt like i'm pregnant.
heh.

for now,
i'm gonna rest.

2009-04-12T02:07:00.002+08:00

for those who has been asking,
this is for you.

something is dead wrong with me.
seriously.

i've been getting weird flashbacks.
i've been imagining/seeing weird things.
i've been negative lately.
i've not been myself recently.

cause ;

i'm starting to not trust myself.
i'm starting to hate myself.
i'm starting to hate being ill.
i'm starting to hate treatments, too.

i can't explain the pain i'm going through exactly.

it is so painful that i cried myself to sleep every night, silently.
it is so painful that i wished i'm better off being dead.
it is so painful that sometimes i gave up trying to be strong.

it is hard being strong through this phase.
it is even harder to act strong in front of all of you.
it is worst knowing that i'm troubling my loved ones, the boyf and my family.
and maybe you.

friends come and go,

to friends who has left me during my darkest days,
i wish you the best in life.

to friends who stayed by me when i'm healthy and sick,
i thank you, really from the bottom of my heart.

to my girls,
i could never thank you girls enough.
for the fun times, the sad times, those catfights we had,
it was all worthwhile, really.
yall are imprinted in my heart, no doubt.

to my baby,
i'm indebted to you in every single way.
for your never-ending care and concern and love for me,
i really thank god for your existence.
i love you baby.

to my family,
i can't thank you enough for making my life possible.
i can't thank you enough for making our home a warm and happy one.
i can't be the best daughter or sister ever,
but i love yall more than my very own life.

it has been a very wordy and teary entry.
i'm sorry if i have bore you.
goodnight and goodmorning.
=))

2009-04-10T04:10:00.002+08:00

for the first time ever in the past 6 weeks,
i was absent from school.

cause i fell really sick.

because ;
- i had serious migraine.
- i had a high fever.
- i had terrible menstrual cramps.

given that i was broke with only a mere 20bucks,
and that i am sick and tired of hospitals,
worst still, i can't even walk,
daddy had to give me a ride to tamp's polyclinic.

i can't forget these sentences.

"Menstrual cramps is the way of your uterus crying out loud to get pregnant."

"Menstruation is human nature but pain is optional. Theres only 2 ways. No.1 is to get pregnant, No.2 is to take contraceptive pills. But you're still young for both therefore i'll give you stronger medication and painkillers. Enjoy your menstruating days ok?"

"Panadol Menstrual Pills are not good and you are ABUSING them."

"If Dr. J is taking care of your neurological problems, i'll be taking care of your menstrual problems. Come and see me next month."

- Dr L.

He might look like Albert Einstein's Chinese Ver.,
He is definitely one nice fatherly-figured-doctor.
He made me teared in front of him.
So paiseh!

On the other hand,
I felt lonely today.
Really lonely.
Haiz.

2009-03-30T01:01:00.002+08:00

i shall make myself clear.

the "friend" that i'm super pissed off with,
is someone that i doubt any of you know of.
she, i repeat she, definitely doesn't exists,
in the context of blogging.

to those that knew about her,
aku nak bunuh dia bleh? U_U

putting that aside,
it is week 5 in my FYPJ.
and it definitely driving me crazy,
later on at 8.30am, L308, C01.

and oh,
i think sunny sin is being a pain in the ass.
SUDDENLY.
more about that later.

ja-ne~

2009-03-29T01:10:00.000+08:00

i was told to go for a 6-days course.
Network Security & Ethical Hacking.
But i have to finish it up in 60 hours.

so heres the deal.

i have to summarise the whole course in to a presentation slide.
with 6 main topics.
and it has to be in a way that i'm presenting to the whole of School of IT.

in other words,
i do the presentation slides.
he will present to the whole of SIT students.
WHY DO I HAVE TO THE DIRTY WORK?!!

give me a break,
its the damn weekend.

2009-03-28T01:07:00.002+08:00

meet my new camera.

its just too damn cute to let it go.
and it is fully sponsored by my baby.
it is supposed to arrive today.
right now, its only 1:10am.

HURRY COME! ^.~

2009-03-27T00:24:00.001+08:00

i don't know why but i felt cranky,
maybe my period is coming.
but who the fuck cares right?

so hear me rant.

you made me wonder in many ways,
that i, myself could not ever imagine.
i don't understand you at all,
no matter how much i tried.

why cant you speak/do things when i'm around?
why do you have to do it secretly?
why why why?

seriously, i don't give a fuck about you anymore, really.
why should i anyway?

you said you needed a friend.
here i am TRYING my fucking best to be one.
and yet you're still the same.

cause you know why?
i knew it all along.
cause you're fucking paranoid.
and you acted like you're oh-so-cool in front others.

if all these while,
all that you're searching for is sympathy, heres my answer.

the reason why i tried to be a friend cause i sympathised with you.
i'm no kidding, sumpah.
try reasoning with me,
i'll bitch-slap you.

let's face it.
you'll never win me, hands down.

call me a bitch.
call me a slut.
i'm sorry to disappoint you.
but i don't care.

this entry is seriously redundant.
but i just need to vent out my feelings somewhere.
or i might just snapped.

and to those who thinks i'm talking about you,
well maybe you should get a life too.

till then, sayonara.

2009-03-22T01:13:00.001+08:00

ok heres the newsflash,
I MISS ESCAPE THEME PARK. I MISS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THOSE THAT MATTERS.I MISS MY DAYS THERE. I'VE NEVER REGRETTED ANYTHING THAT HAPPENED THERE.CAUSE THOSE WERE THE PEOPLE, THE REASON, THE CAUSE OF MAKING ME A WHOLE NEW BETTER PERSON.

ALLOW ME TO REMINISCE MY MEMORIES.

HERE WE GO.

(i know the pictures are like all over the place but who cares.)

iftar 2007 (above) & iftar 2008 (below)
dee's 21st birthday.

hangouts @ alfresco

fish&co with yammy's family

smoking corner

Movie Night @ ETP.

me & my two fave pinoy boyfs, glenn & joseph. =))

AZUL~!!!

YDAH, the fact we found each other irritating and yet, shes one of the best cliques ever.

2006

all-time fave breakers

and not forgetting,

the fact that i fell in love with this bugger was @ escape.

and theres like so many more ppl and pictures to be uploaded such as shammie, farah, nana, flo, patricia, kris, ade, zila, dayah, fadzil my mat handsome, etc.

but i'm just plain lazy ah right now

some other days ok?
and nana,
if you're reading this,
i'm still not going back to etp.

2009-03-18T00:11:00.001+08:00

newsflash.

i finally cleared ALL my modules.
now i'm left with FYP and IPP.
FYPJ ends on the 22nd May.
IPP which is attachment ends on the 14th Aug.

That, my friend, is my last day of school.
Its like I almost can't wait to finish school,
but I also do not want to finish school.
Cause thats when responsibilities comes in.

Truth to be told,
I have big plans for my future.
I wanna have a shoe line of my own.
My own brand.

Not to worry,
I'll take one step at a time.

For now,
lets just enjoy school.
no matter how contradicting i sound.

2009-03-15T04:24:00.002+08:00

150309 ;
today is our 38th month, together.

after 3years and 2 months,
i could still feel your love roaming around me.
i can definitely see your tender and loving care for me.
which i am thankful for, every single day.

fights are inevitable,
but i thank you for your patience every single time.
i'm proud that we have never parted ways.
not even for a moment.

for that,
i thank you, muhammad faizal.

for you,
will always be the love of my life.
will always be the light in my darkest days.
will always be my guardian angel.

i love you baby.
more than words.

2009-03-11T23:00:00.006+08:00

oh no,

all my pretty boys have changed their hairstyle.

i'll let you look at the Before & After.

Mizushima Hiro,
OMGOMGOMG WHATS UP WITH THE BLONDE HAIR?!
since i'm sucha fangirl, pls dye your hair black again after the movie, Drop. ^.^V
and that you're definitely not a deliquent, ne~

Matsumoto Jun,
the 2nd ultimate man in my life beside the boy. DUH.
yay! you've got your bangs back but i miss the curly-permo hair.
but ily so its ok. =))

Kim Hyun Joong,
now that BOF is over, please let your hair grow.
i prefer you with the bad boy look, ARASSO? heh.

on the other hand,
i've been thinking of cutting my hair short.
should i or should i not?
hmmmmmmm ~_~

2009-03-09T17:10:00.004+08:00

HwangBo Hye Jung
shes my next female idol besides Nicole Kidman.
shes spunky.
shes gorgeous.
shes pretty much summed thing up.

the boy and farhati would know how much I loved HB.
hhehehe.

on the other hand,

5 of my girlf are on a KL trip.
so fun tapi hujan.
so goodluck darlings.
don't forget my heels.

chalet was a nice relaxing one.
nothing too hectic.
hapy bday again, dan.

putting aside all the controversies,
i hope things will remain the same.
fingers crossed.

2009-03-05T15:45:00.003+08:00

i'm having menses.
i'm currently fucking cranky.
and i have so much to vent about.

so here goes the list.

i thought i would keep it low for a long long time.
but i can't hold it any longer.

i can't believe you're turning into what you are now.
i'm disappointed in you.
i'm angry that you could not even tell the truth to us.
get the facts right instead of going into rounds and rounds of lies.

i'm angry that whenever we meet you're either cranky or expressionless.
i'm angry at the fact that you made my bf sad.
i'm angry that you disappoints us time and again.

i'm angry at the fact that you lied to me about my bf.
no one talk bad or dirty about him to me.
even if someone does, they're just making jokes.
how could you since you're special and dear to us.

the fact that you're going around bragging pisses me off.
dude, you're not the only one who has everything in this world.
you're not the only one whose in love.

ORANG LAIN PUN BERCINTA JUGA OK!

i'm so cranky that i have loads to curse and swear about.
but i'm too tired to put it all in my blog.
IF you think i'm blogging about you,
feel free to call me.

right as of now,
temporarily,
till things get brighter and nicer,
fuck you.

2009-03-04T14:05:00.002+08:00

2.05pm

this is the 3rd post of the day ;
cause i'm bored like that.

lunch hour today was fun.
we ate @ bedok corner,
(for me, its again.)
cause we're smangat like that.

ok no, we went to meet hakim ah actually.

and i want to friggin sue NYP.
I ATTEND SCHOOL EVERY SINGLE DAY SIA.
AND HOW COULD YOU GIVE ME A BLOODY 84.78% FOR ATTENDANCE?!!

KNN-NNB-CCB.

now i'm mad.
correction, FUMING MAD.

2009-03-04T10:37:00.001+08:00

10.37AM

yesterday night was pretty awesome.
the boy and i went to meet up with the 3-Ds, like finally ah.
had our long catch-up and lanjiao-wei session.

mcm biasa jugak.

and for the rest of the week,
i've pretty much got everything all planned.

thurs
- syiirin and ati is coming to NYP for lunch.
- going grocery shopping with the PRCs.
fri
- haikal is FINALLY having lunch with me.
(that idiot slept on me yesterday)
sat
- Johor Bahru with the girls in the day
-chalet & steamboat @ night
sun
-photoshoot in the day
-chalet & bbq @ night

and monday, the boy has to die2 send me to sch before 830am.
kesian dia.

2009-03-04T02:53:00.000+08:00

2.53AM

i like watching japanese and korean shows. why?
they like saying things that will hit you so bad.
right in your face, seriously.

tami-chan said ;

heres the good thing.
once you're too attached to your lover,
you'll never let them go, no matter what.

the bad thing is,
just like how you grow to fall in love with them,
you'll soon realised that they've grown out of love with you.
as time goes by.

and one day they will say,
"we're all grown-ups. there's no such things as love."

the way i read it,
its pretty contradicting.
but if you think again,
this might be on of the reason why Singapore has a high rate of young divorcees.

2009-03-02T16:20:00.002+08:00

something is wrong with NYP.
damn fucking wrong.

how could you give 3 Logistics student a bloody NETWORKING project as FYPJ?

"NETWORK SECURITY ASSESSMENT"
are you freaking nuts?
mampos tak nak.

nuff said, i'm stuck with it for 3mths.
and,
i'm stucking with trying to isolate the wifi network the whole damn day.
cb.

p/s: menses coming, cranky. mcm biasa jugak.

2009-03-02T01:50:00.002+08:00

the last time i attended school for classes was in january.
and now its march.
see how time flew by so fast.

i have to go for the FYPJ briefing @ 830am.
and now its going 2am.
and i cant fucking sleep.

too much waking up at night and sleeping in the day.
mcm babz. haha wtf -____-"

on the other hand,

i think menses is coming.
i hate the fact that we can sense it coming.
and when it comes,
there goes me, myself and i on the roller coaster ride.

ok fuck it.
i'm going to try to sleep.
adious.

2009-02-28T22:38:00.002+08:00

today is by far the shortest meet-up ever.
planned to go for a movie and dinner.
but hell it didnt happened.

cause it was raining cats & dogs.
thats why.

i met him in front of Escape @ 840pm.
we seeked for shelter near alif's place @ 855pm.
rain finally subsided and decided to went home.
reached home @ 10pm.

see how short it was.

the next time i wanna go out,
i am so checking out the weather forecast.

on the other side of the story,
i kind of think adam lambert is cute.
in a way or two.

ok miang i know, bye.

2009-02-27T01:30:00.004+08:00

the boy dragged me out of bed at 930am.
(fyi, i slept @ 6am ehhh.)
so where did we head to?
NTUC Tampines Mall, to buy groceries for cook lasagna and pizza.

oiishi ne~

eh wait,
thats not exactly it.

i wanted to take my pay.
cause ms.linnie said my cheque is a cash cheque.
only to find out that my cheque is a CROSS cheque.
thanks lin. -_____-"

and the boy was so pumped up knowing that my pay is out,
since i'm gonna get him the Red Tail Gold Arowana.
yet his hopes were crushed, AGAIN.

oh well.
we'll get it this monday ok baby?
this time,
don't even think of showing me your sad face. -_____-

2009-02-23T20:55:00.003+08:00

i was watching "Love Shuffle", Japanese Drama.
and this what Airu-chan said.

As time passes by,
even if the love is still around,
the feeling fades away.

I kept thinking about it.
Its like a psychological warfare.
Things like,
Is it true? Do i feel that way? Does he still love me like before? and etc.

Nonetheless,
i still am in love with the boy,
who is sleeping like a baby beside me.
Just like Day1.

p/s:
if i were given a choice to lengthen my lifespan.
i would cause my life right now is short-lived.
and theres tons of ppl i miss so much.
you know who you guys are.
=))

2009-02-09T02:59:00.002+08:00

time check now is 3am, 9th February.
i have an exam paper, System Integration @ 12pm later today.

since i'm such a genius,
i actually mistook S.I for another module.
so i have to finish studying one module by today.

BUT

as you can see,
i can't lie to myself no more.
i oggled too much at matsumoto jun.
that i revamped my page.

fyi, Matsumoto Jun is Japan Man of the Year(Singer/Actor), 2008.
i'm so proud of you.

okay i have to stop procastinating and study.
seriously.
and oh, wish me luck, will ya?

2009-02-04T02:03:00.002+08:00

above is muhd faizal bin rahman

and

i think my bf is retarded

so how?

2009-02-02T00:06:00.003+08:00

now its 12:06AM.
10mins ago,
the boy arrived right in front of my doorstep.
with home cook food.

why?
i said i was hungry.
and then 20mins later,
hes in front of my door step.

rice, sambal squid & mutton soup.

ahhhhhhh.
awesome.
the best supper i had in months.

2009-01-28T03:02:00.003+08:00

//edited. (too excited kan!)

Date : Dec '09
Destination : Japan.
Days : 6D5N
Cost : $2,068 per pax.

what the hell.
i'd scrimp and save every single cent i have.
aaaaaaaahhhh.
i can't wait.

my head is in whirlpool,
but heck it!

japan, here i come!
matsumoto jun, here i come!
pi-chan, here i come!
mizushima hiro, here i come!

watashiwa hontouni ureshi ne~
nihongo desho kaaaa~~~

2009-01-23T00:52:00.002+08:00

i feel so fucking weak.
i feel so fucking low.
i feel so fucking shitty.
i feel so fucking dizzy.

and that also didn't stop me from telling you off.
for telling you that you are fucking annoying.
and that you are seeking his attention.
and that i don't give a damn about what you say.

don't you dare complain about being sick.
try being in a spot where the doc tells you,
that you've got less than 1 year to live.
so right as of now,

fuck off.
you don't have the damn fucking right.
cause being sick,
is definitely not a reason to get my bf's attention.

you know who you are.

on the brighter side,
and that doesn't stop me from karaoke-ing too.
Budget K might just be our next paradise.
=))

2009-01-19T04:38:00.001+08:00

and thanks to you noor diyanah rohaizad.
the war between me and my bf starts as of now.

you happy now?

2009-01-16T22:54:00.003+08:00

he wrote for me this poem for our third anniversary.
sweet right?
read it.

These 3 years with u
which was neverending
was one of the
worst dat i could imagine and
best that i had
was when i was not
together with u.

And all i want is
for u to stop
spending all my life
savings but i think
together with u
cause the problem is u
and only u
I think that you
are the one
that has to go as someone
that i love
is jessica alba not
Nona Malinda Bte Ramli

now you must be thinking.
WTF -____-

heres the catch.
cancel all the 2nd, 4th, 6th line onwards.
and heres the actual msg.

These 3 years with u
was one of the
best that i had
together with u.

And all i want is
spending all my life
together with u
and only u,
are the one
that i love,
Nona Malinda Bte Ramli.

now everybody,
go AWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

so tell me how could i not love this irritating bugger?
^v^V

2009-01-15T00:34:00.002+08:00

today is 15-01-09.
3 years ago when it was 15-01-06,
that was the day i fell madly in love with muhd faizal.

our relationship was going on strong.
with of course, ups and downs.
to top it all off,
we made it through these 3 years together.

it might not be that much of a big deal,
cause these 3 years was by far the best years i have in my life.
but in 3 years time,
we'll be in a different phase from now.
:))

even so, insyallah,
we'll will always be together.
amin.

happy 3rd anniversary baby.
(eng) i love you.
(jap) aishiteru.
(kor) sarang hamida.

2009-01-06T00:28:00.002+08:00

the last post was deleted due to it being too emotional.
and i was simply letting out my angst.

don't you worry okay darlings.
i'm as good as i can ever be.

and apparently,
life's too short to be angry all the time.
at least i think mine is.

so lets be happy.
our 3rd anni is coming right up.
and so is farhati's 20th.
so lets go party people!

=))

2008-12-24T01:47:00.009+08:00

HK was super awesome.

Too bad i had to abandon the boy and friends for ZoukOut '08.
And too many things to say.
Enjoy the pics, yall.

the parents.the ever-so-irritating sister
pay your toll, mister.

so pretty right their commerical buildings!
awesome view from my Royal View Hotel room.
the super-packed tram ride that you have to wait
at least 3 hrs to get the tickets.this is the reason why you should wait.
and this is Mr. Shahril's favourite History model,
Hitler Misai Kontot.
boys's all-time favourite, ayumi hamasaki.
my husband, Bae Yong Joon.
(farhati, don't jealous k.)
Ladies Street, Mong Kok.
AWESOME ; cause it sells alot of pretty shoes and BOOTS.
FEEELING SUPERSTAR.
camwhoring ; more to come.
I'm your next SG model.

not finished yet.

2008-12-12T13:46:00.000+08:00

look at my new phone. (^.^)V

2008-12-01T02:56:00.002+08:00

NEWSFLASH!

BABY OFFERS TO BUY FOR ME A LAPTOP.
OMFG.

I'M SO EXCITED THAT I COULD DIE OF HAPPINESS.

KKKYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~!!!!

lets go survey some. (^v^) V

Note : the word is OFFER, i swear i didn't asked.

tell me how could i ever live without him.
its not about the things he buy for me.
its about he goes around about buying it for me.

well boys and ladies,
keep this in mind.

its never always about the looks, the money and his ride, sometimes only.
its the purity of the heart and soul that matters.
and life is a fucking bitch.
you'll never get what you want.

well if everyone get what they want,
life wouldn't be any fun anymore.
would it?

think about it.

2008-11-27T12:32:00.001+08:00

It’s only human to change and make mistakes.
Don’t you think so?

With whatever that is going around,
And of all people that I don’t expect to be so absorbed with these incidents would be you.

We can never predict the future.
And we have no right to stop another person from doing whatever they want to do.
We can advise but we can never force.

It disappoints me that you got so emotionally involved.
It disappoints me that you compared me to them.
It disappoints me that you got crushed by the fact that your friends disappoint you.

And suddenly I have so much disappointment.
In my friends.
In you too.

Haiz.

2008-11-23T03:16:00.003+08:00

he was like an angel sent from above (with horns of course, that devil!).

he was the most irritating idiot in my whole entire life
but also, he was one of the most caring one too.
he made life in NYP, an enjoyable one.

i still remember all those moments we shared.
smoking in school toilet together during Sugar-Free gig cause we were plain lazy to go out of sch.
Dance 101? Malam maksiat, nuff said.
forcing him to come to Jam & Hop and end up i went home cause of a very high fever, etc.
he nagged at huda at how if he knew i wont be there, he would rather stayed home.
even so, he dragged me into clubroom to rest.
once he became my 1-day bf during chalet.
he stayed up all night playing psp while listening to us girls gossiping whereas aidil and yunus gave up.
he even followed me and wait outside the toilet.
-__-"

and no worries,
he aint my boyfriend.

he is just muhd haikal bin rahim.
our birthdays are just 2 days away.
and i just miss him so so much la.
cause he's missing in school.
how, friend, how?

2008-11-17T00:43:00.004+08:00

finally an update.

so many had happened in the last month.

i'm too lazy to type so pictures will do for the while.

.Hari Raya 2008.
.Syiirin's 19th.
.DP Bugis = AWESOME!.
.Baby's 22nd..Firah's 19th.
Singapore Flyers(Family).
.Singapore Flyer (Us).
sidetrack,
i officially declare that i quit working at escape theme park.
(whether or not imran approves of it)

minna-san, oyasimi~ ^^
(Everyone, Goodnight!)

2008-11-15T03:28:00.001+08:00

Only you can make me smile.
Only you can wrap me in your arms.
Only you, only you shine brighter than a jewel.
You're brighter than a sunshine
Your mind is wider than a sea.

Only you, only you make me live
I passed by the farthest stars to meet you.
I must have come too far
I want to love you as one, just like that warm sunset.
Give me your heart that never dies.

Even if I gave you my poor love,
You gave me even more love
Only you, only you can give me happiness

Your eyes are twinkling just like a star
Your lips, your two hands, you don't have any place to hate.
We're starting to become alike, it must be happiness.

For you, for you
There's something I have to say,
Have told you that I was thankful
Since the time we started to love, I was always sorry to you.
I want to love you as one, just like that warm sunset
Give me your heart that never dies.

Even if I gave you my poor love,
You gave me even more love
Only you, Only you can give me happiness

Even if I give you my entire life,
There's nothing to feel regretful about
Only you, only you, you're the only reason that I'm living for.

And thats you, muhd faizal.

2008-09-29T03:15:00.003+08:00

finally,
F1 IS OVER.

let's keep it short and simple.
(10 key points only.)

1. its so fucking awesome.
2. i've made quite a few awesome and unique friends.
3. i'm fucking underpaid.
4. i watched most of the races and yes, the finale too.
at the Grandstand, for free.
5. my ears are screaming for silence.
6. i got to see Angelina Jolie & David Beckham, with my naked eyes.
7. i walked with Fernando Alonso at the Paddocks.
8. i got for baby a Ferrari cap which fucking cost $65.
9. ISS Catering suck balls.

and

10. its a fucking good 3 days, afterall.

I LOVE F1.

pictures will be updated after my much awaited sleep.

p/s: The F1 :The Fucking awesome 1.

2008-09-27T00:57:00.002+08:00

can't someone smack the whole lot of kiasu singaporean?!

today is the start of F1.
today is the first day of F1.
today is only the test-drive day of F1.

yet,

nearly half of singapore is at marina/raffles/city hall.
-_____-"

nevertheless,

the work is fun.
the view is still awesome.
the noise is OBVIOUSLY beyond words.
the mat sallehs are super duper uber yummy.

oh oh. the car girls?
they are superbly hot and viciously sexy.

right now, im heading to bed.
i seriously need some silent moments.
12hrs gone ; another 12 to go.
wish me luck.

oyasimi (goodnight) fellow readers.
sayonara.

p/s: countdown to hari raya - 4 more days.

2008-09-21T13:58:00.002+08:00

i'm seriously super pissed off.
you used my stuffs without permission.
worst still, undergarments?
EURGH.

like hello, seriously.
your brain juice has totally dried up huh?
or you have none in the first place?
MY GODDD.

theres a bloody limitation to everything.
and you have totally crossed over the damn limits.
if you think by doing houseworks will earn you the merits in the family,
think again.

fine, i hate doing houseworks.
so? big deal huh?

since you're so hygienic,
why don't you everyone a favour?
clean the whole damn house without complaining bakaro~

damn.
i so have alot to bitch about you.
if you ain't happy,
i ain't got time to be nice to you.

baka de umaira teme!

2008-09-17T03:09:00.000+08:00

Life has been pretty amazing lately.

Lovely boyfriend.
Warm family.
Great friends.
Awesome outings.
Delicious food.
Sexy MatsuJun.

Maybe its a gift from the fasting month.

Well i can't ask for anything better than this.
Cause if i do, i'll be one helluva greedy person.

Yatta!. Watashi hontouni ureshii.
(Yay! I'm really happy.)

2008-09-04T11:27:00.004+08:00

for as much i want to learn microsoft silverlight ;
thats exactly how much i will fall sleep halfway.

its been freezing cold and raining in most areas for the past few days.
and its not helping at all.
for the fasting ones.
gosh!

oh oh. wanna see my retarded bf?
*DEFINITELY NOT THE THE FAINT-HEARTED*

sumpah eh my bf dont look like this in real life.
hahahahahah

OK ENOUGH

on a side note ;

SARS-FANSUBS, can you please please upload Hana Yori Dango Finale?
like pretty pretty please.

2008-09-01T02:18:00.002+08:00

today was a super hectic day.
and for some reason unknown,
i was pissed/angry/bored/tired all the time.
=(

btw,
whatsup with girls with overflowing boobs wearing undergarments only all over friendster?
the total amount is accumulating.

sumpah eh aku tak paham. ishk.
besok puasa oi.
and my class starts at 830am.
mcm si-a-laaaaaaaan.
-_-"

ok nights.

p/s:
to those who it may concerned, happy fasting ;
for the rest of you, dont macam paham(like real).

2008-08-30T02:51:00.003+08:00

.HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY, MATSUMOTO JUN.
.I LOVE YOU.
.MAY GOD BLESS YOU.

2008-08-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

have any of you felt like life is moving super fast recently?
well i did.
i swear to to god that its super scary.

sch is ending by next april-may next year.
and i'll be turning 20.
my relationship will turn 3.
my goodness.

how time passed by so fast.

in 2 more day, 1st Sept,
puasa will start.
fyp will start.
and so will my alarm clock.

lets endure this.
1 month of.....
- no food
- no cigg
- no drink
- no junks
....just up to 7pm everyday.

for now,
FIGHT-OH!

2008-08-27T22:22:00.004+08:00

life has been pretty mundane recently.
loads of stay-at-home days.
the rain is definitely not helping during the weekdays.
so yeah.

but i've been watching korean and japanese shows.
so thats like my partner-in-crime.
cause it kinda take my boredom away.
and i get to goggle at hot boys.

YUMMMYYY

but im pretty much excited right now.
cause right now, i'm over at the boy's place.
and tmrw, i'm gonna meet the girls.
for TABOOOOO.

oh oh,
i miss the PRCs.
so so much.
meet up soon k ppl?

2008-08-26T00:55:00.002+08:00

YAAAATTTTTAAAAA!

exams are over.
more time for me.
more time for my japanese show.
more time to sleep.

time check now is 5am, Tuesday, 26th Aug.
last i check i woke up from bed was 10.30am, Saturdat, 23rd Aug.
its time for me to sleeeeeeeeeeeep.

and btw,
i dyed my hair.
kawaiiii-ne~~

sayonara.

2008-08-19T17:49:00.007+08:00

1 Litre of Tears

Double it. Triple it.
It still wont accumulate to the amount of tears I shed.
The show ought to receive like thousands of thumbs up.

The show is about a young girl who has an incurable disease.
But shes strong as hell.
She doesn't believe in dying till the very last second.

I believe that we all always take things for granted.
And we don't realised it till the day we lose it.
"Live On Forever", thats what Ikeuchi Aya-san said.

Fyi, its based on a true story.

For now, enjoy the song.

Konayuki - Remioromen

English translation of the song.

We always miss each other in the season of fluttering powdered snow
Though we’re lost in the crowd, we’re looking up at the same sky
And blown by the wind, we both feel the same chill

I’m sure I don’t know everything about you
But still I found you out of a hundred million people
I have no proof, but I truly believe that

We can’t spend time together without quarrelling over little things
If we can’t be honest with each other, happiness and sadness are empty

If the powdered snow had made our hearts white
Would we have been able to share our loneliness?

I want to press my ear against your heart
And descend quietly into the depths where that voice leads me
Let’s meet there once again

I’m the one who said I wanted us to understand each other, but just brushed the surface
When just by holding your cold hand we’re connected

With eternity before it, the powdered snow seems too fragile
It stains the surface of the rough asphalt

Powdered snow, sometimes I’m unreliable and my heart is swayed
But even so I want to keep protecting you

If the powdered snow has made our hearts white
It will enfold our loneliness and return it to the sky

2008-08-04T22:16:00.002+08:00

after a week of not meeting,
i met the boy on saturday.
gosh,
only god knows how i feel when i see him.

feeling ecstatic and at the same time sad & angry.
its a feeling way beyond these words.
if only i could let any of you feel what im feeling inside.

being with the boy on that saturday,
its truly memorable.

staying in ; watching his beloved shrimps ;
catching up ; the hugs and kisses ;
the walk in the park ; waiting for me to cross the bridge ;
nothing could ever replace those memories.

yes yes, i know.
i might be a lil too mushy-wushy.
but hell, i love my baby.

on a lighter note,
my FYP is starting on 1st Sept.
the same day we start fasting.
so, enlighten me, anyone?

2008-07-28T22:35:00.002+08:00

.my hot japanese toy boys.

2008-07-20T21:53:00.003+08:00

Once upon a time, there was a boy and a girl
This is so typical, they were so typical
For example boy loves girl, but girl doesn’t know that boy loves her coz,
The boy is shy, the boy is why
The girl still stands strong livin’ her life
They were very good friends having very good chances
The man in boy, pretends that he had no love for the girl anyway
He keeps to himself in the place that he stays umm,
He writes letters, one after another, and other, ways he possibly could saying that
Gotta be, gotta be my everything

Almost But - Sleeq

2008-07-19T02:00:00.002+08:00

you. you. and you.

you're killing me softly.
penetrating through my mind, my heart, my soul.
making me more confused than ever.

all i know is;
i want you,
i want you,
and i want you.

2008-07-15T14:32:00.002+08:00

what is it about you that is always haunting my mind?
please stop this.
cause i'm going insane over it.
and you're definitely not helping.

if only you knew.
if only.

2008-07-15T00:19:00.002+08:00

you know what i love so much about the boy?

well i don't know what it is.
but i sure do know one thing,
he captures my heart since day1.

oh i love you baby.
i wished your work wasn't so tiring afterall.
and i wished i had no school tomorrow,
so we can have a date and spend the night by the beach watching the stars.

oh what the heck.
happy 30th baby.
i love you so so much.

Muhd Faizal

2008-07-08T03:04:00.003+08:00

My love for you will never end
You'll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
On passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy

If you were to go, I don’t know
You’re the only one who
Sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makes
My heart wanna beat and i,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel
Has to be true
Cause you’re my, my sweet love

Baby Boy Remix - big brovas

FUCK

2008-07-08T01:15:00.003+08:00

beware : this fucking post will be full of the fucking word, fuck/fucking.
so if you fucking dont like it, then FUCK OFF.

1. fuck the fucking warehouse management system.
2. fuck the fucking Microsoft visual basic.
3. fuck the fucking Microsoft access database.
4. fuck the fucking fact the fucking program is fucking 60%.
5. fuck the fucking fact that my fucking program can't run.
6. fuck that motherfucking piece of shit.
7. fuck fuck fuck fuck.
8. I'm fucked up.
9. fuck you bitch.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i fucking feel so fucking much better.
:)

2008-07-01T19:05:00.002+08:00

aku tidak suka kepada orang yang ada dua muka.
jikalau kau tidak menyukai seseorang,
di depan khalayak ramai kau lain,
di belakang khalayak ramai kau lain.

aku hendak beritahu kau,
kalau kau tetap bersikap demikian,
aku tidak akan menjadi bahu untuk kau menangis.
sumpah.

aku sudah penat melayan kerena kau yang sunggu meluat itu.
apa kata,
kau layan dia dan jangan cari aku bila korang gaduh.
bosan tau tak.

BOSAN.

aku minta maaf kerana aku tgh ada mood nak blog dalam bahasa melayu.
hahahahahaa.
selamat malam kawan-kawan.

1st July.

2008-07-01T18:46:00.002+08:00

Today is the start of a new month.
The end of the June, an awesome month.

Let me recap to you my June.

7 June - Got my red PSP from my baby! =DD
12 June - Live Audio Chalet. Great memories!
14 June - Excellent quality time with the boy.
15 June - <33 29th
18 June - Carousel, Royal Plaza Hotel with the girls. AWESOMEEEE!
19 June - Surprise Tiramisu-On-The-Face Bday Celebration with Escapees.
20 June - Sakura with the boy! Lovely!
25 June - Seoul Garden + on-the-go shopping with GG!
26 June - Wild Wild Wet with Dee-Khai-Flo-Luk-Shorty-Syaq-Hafi-Don. FUN FUN FUN!
28 June - PRC Bbq Pit, one word = TABOO! :)

By far the most awesome June ever. I like.
Thanks everyone for the awesome time, moments and memories.
Thanks baby for making it an awesome one for me, I LOVE YOU.

Well,
What can I say?
I've got awesome friends around me.
I thank yall for that.
<33

50 secrets.

2008-06-24T16:21:00.002+08:00

Be honest no matter what!
(SORRY CANNOT BE TOO HONEST OKAY!)

* reason why i'm doing this: BORED LIKE FRIGGIN SHIT.

1) Who was your last text from? : Shann.
2) Where was your default pic taken? : Royal Plaza Hotel, Carousel.
3) Your relationship status? : Attached, yet somehow we're practically married. HEH.
4) Does your crush like you back? : If only VIN DIESEL knows.
5) What is your current mood? : BORED AS HELL AAAHHHH. FUCKENADEN
6) Whats your brothers name? : Hans & Hassan.
7) Whats your favorite color? : Green! Red! Blue! Anyting bright!
8) Have a crazy side? : Heh. I shall leave it to you guys.
9) Ever had a near death experience ? : Yes, once too many. Go-Kart ain't that safe you know.
10) Something you do alot? : As of now, i yawn alot, i swear.
11) Angry at anyone? : Nope.
12) Do you wanna see somebody right now? : I WANT TO SEE MY BATTTY, FAIZAL.
13) When is the last time you cried? : MY BIRTHDAY! MY GOD.
14) Who would you do anything for? : God. Parents. Siblings. Faizal.
15) What is the one thing you notice about the opposite sex first? : Body. Yummy!
16) Where's your ex at and what are they doing? : Somewhere in the lalangss!
17) Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? : Yes, Hannah Montana & Cody Brothers is the shit yo!
18) What are you eating or drinking at the moment? : Nothing.
19) Do you speak any other languages? : English, Malay, Chinese.
20) How much money is in your wallet? : 17 bucks to last me for the whole week. Congrats Nona!
21) Describe your life in one word? : Awesome.
22) If you are a guy. Have you been circumcise? : Duh. I wouldn't want a shaggy looking penis yo!
23) What are you thinking about right now? : Whether to skip class later or not.
24) What should you be doing right now? : Paying attention to the my reportSSS!
25) What is your favorite memory? : I've too many favourites, how? but mainly with the boyf.
26) Who was the last person you told I love you to? : My Batman Returns, Faizal.
27) Who was the last person who yelled at you? : Mummy uh. Who else? Heh.
28) Do you act differently around the person you like? : Hahhaha. I've been me from Day 1 till now. Hello! I was 14 when we first went out on a date. Now im 19? -_-"
29) What is your natural hair color ? : Black luh.
30) Who was the last person to make you smile? : My Batman Gemok.
31) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirty : As of now, im taken. But when you're taken, you may never know what yu're doing next.
32) Are you happy with him? : DUH. Bingo qns!
33) Would you still kiss your ex? : I would, if he were to bring me like a gazillion dollars back to me.
34 ) Have you ever had your heart broken? : DUH.
35) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok? : I guess so but lets just play it safe.
36) Have you ever talked about marriage? : Yeahh! I want to be married by 23. But i've ALOT MORE to accomplish!
37) Do you want children? : yes, pls!
38 ) How Many? : 2 boy + 2 girl = 4 kids, that'll be ideal. like my fam.
39) Would you consider abortion? : no, never in a million years.
40) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? : how why when who what
41) Do you want someone you cant have? : yes, i want vin diesel.
42) Have you fallen in love? : was in love, am in love, will always be in love with that GEMOK.
43) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries? : yeah, but not too often. waste moneyy.
44) Is it a good day today? : its an ok-ok day.
45) Have you ever broken a heart before? : yeah.
46 ) Does your ex still have feelings for you? : ex can be pretty confusing. sometimes they want new girls sometime they want their old ones. lets put it this way, boys can never be contented. eurgh.
47) Do you still have feelings for them? : nope. why should i?
48)You wish to have a bf/gf for now? : That wish came true on 15th Jan 2006.
49)What now you wish for? : I wish that I could just get over and done with Nanyang Polytechnic NOW.
50)If you have bf/gf now...do you really love them? : You might want to ask my baby gemok!

Live Audio's Chalet

2008-06-14T22:40:00.008+08:00

Chalet was SUPER love.
Loads of things to share.
But like the wise always say,
"some things are better left untold."

the grill
the chef (smangat 10min)
meet ricky+matin.
Hadi,
the new president of LiveAudio.
Razis,
The Vice.
Huda,
The Secretary.
Aidil said, "Kal, kau mcm kahwin dua!"
Our birthday cake. YUMMY OI!
The Ex-President.
the sweetest boy. hands down.
yours truly, Ex-FirstLady.my fav boy, my fav pic.
wid cute! kal mentel!
.20th.19th.18th.
and he blow my candle off too.
sumpah i dont know why i close my eyes.chocolate facial. anyone?
wid, the "kak" fanatic.
the Secretaries.
aidil, the poor boy got irritated by girl gossips.
haikal bought for me that blue stone and a purple billabong wallet.my personal bodyguard, haikal.
he played psp from 3am -8am.
-_-"
a new day. a new start
- BACK TO WORK NONA. BYE -

birthday present.

2008-06-07T19:53:00.005+08:00

I GOT MY PRESENT FROM MY BABY BOY.
YAY! YAY! YAY!

ITS THE LIMITED EDITION PSP SLIM & LITE PACKAGE.
AND ITS FUCKING RED.
AND I CAN FUCKING PLAY MY GAME ON MY TV.
HOW COOL CAN IT GET?

OMG OMG OMG.
can someone pls tell me how can i not love him?
HAHAHAHAHA.
he knows what i want.

and oh,
ayu got hers too, iPod Touch.
shes a happy woman.
and guess what?

my conclusion ;
i love my boy kering.
so does ayu.
( kering = skinny ; skinny = love )

and oh, dont be jealous.
=P

Public Transport.

2008-05-29T12:01:00.003+08:00

yes public transport.
well thats what we're gonna take for the while now.
the phase of taking bike is like so over for me.
cause i've been on it since i was 4.

but i do miss the speed at times.
going at 160kmph is thrilling.
frigging serious shit.
i guess i had my fair share of speed, accidents and of course, scars.

ok this is very random.
my blog, my say.
(if you think i'm talking about you, favor pls stop it.)

i hate girls whos going out with a guy.
not for the guy, but for the bike.
like hello, grow up!
but ya whatever.

oh did i tell you the boy is gonna take class 2?
1000cc = 100000000000times for me to worry -_-"
siaaaaann.

ok i got break frm 2-3.
accompany me, anyone?

34Hrs Of Sleep.

2008-05-25T13:59:00.003+08:00

gosh, i wished i was well enough to stay for jam&hop.
but no, my fever just had to rise so friggin' high.
grrrrr.
too bad uh, just now my luck.

and i practically slept through my Saturday.
thanks to the med.
heres a preview.

9pm(23/5) - 10am(24/5) => sleeeeep
11am(24/5) - 430pm(24/5) => sleeeeep
5pm(24/5) - 10pm(24/5) => sleeeeep
130am(25/5) - 11am(25/5) => sleeeeep

now i'm sleepy again. -_-"

p/s: sorry haikal bebe, i'll make it up to you soon k.

2008-05-22T15:30:00.002+08:00

im sick and tired of being sick and tired!
really, i am.
i'm like so close to dragging myself to the hospital.
and getting myself to be admitted.

haiz.
and i misss the boyf.
meeting him later!
yay! =D

oh oh,
DAVID COOK IS MY AMERICAN IDOL!!
and also,
MAN UTD. IS THE CHAMPION!!
(ok i dont watch soccer but apparently, everyone in class is like crazy abt the game. so yeah.)

back to me.
i'm coughing 24/7.
even in my sleep.
freaking serious.

god, i need serious medication.
cigg? i smoke like max 3 sticks.
thats like uber little.
aiyooo..

tmrw is Jam&Hop.
dresscode: black and white.
still thinking about what to wear.
hmmmmm. help me?

okla i think my entry is long enough to make anyone go bonkers.
goodbye.

❤ 28th.

2008-05-15T15:32:00.002+08:00

the cramps sucks.
BIG TIME!

but thank god,
for Panadol Menstrual, the savior of my life.
i'm cheerful now.
=))

well i hope it'll hold on like this.

oh oh oh.
today is our 28th.
jeng jeng jeng.

and can someone please shoot haikal for me?
$50 for 30 people's food.
(we're making a chalet.)
"______________"!!!!!!!!!!

to kakak nurulhuda, do the maths babe.
to haikal, no you're not my boy's bf nor mine.
to my girls, when want to meet la ehhh!
to the PRC, i miss you guys so so so much laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

to the boy,
i ❤ you.

2008-05-12T22:22:00.005+08:00

super inflamed throat,
non-stop coughing,
hardcore voice,
& increasingly high fever.

how much more worst can it get?
this cough is making me cranky.
damn it.

ok below is a couple of things that i want.
(thinking abt them and the boy makes me happy.)

1. Handphone, K850i.

2. PSP Deep Red.

3. Canon EOS Digital Rebel XTI

this is only the top 3.
theres more to where that came from.

everybody, get your wallets ready!
for 20th June 2008.
=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D

priceless.

2008-05-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

slack over @ the boy's place was totally a precious memory.
it always had,
& will always be.

today he played the guitar for me,
and i swear to god,
his face was totally priceless.

so jiwang!

being the sweetie pie he has always been,
i just can't describe how i felt.
totally beyond any words you can ever came across.

i love you b.

2008-05-04T14:54:00.002+08:00

okay so,
i've spent my whole entire day watching and reading HOLLYWOOD ACCESS.
and thats cause,
i'm not needed @ work today.

"_________________"!!!!

sian sian sian.
gonna meeet the boyf later.
=D

and i cant wait for next week.
its all so exciting.
expecially mr desert.
yummy!

2008-04-24T16:54:00.001+08:00

ok like i promised.
i will blog again.
ONLY WITH A NEW BLOG SKIN~~!!
HAHAHAHHAA

ok this proves to you something.
study hard, dont repeat.
or else,
you will be doing what im doing.

and yes,
i have something with green and pink.
woohooo!
1 more hr to gooo!!

i'll be counting down the minute to finish class.
trust me.
i'll be back.
bye again!

2008-04-24T15:30:00.002+08:00

and so,
school started = one more year of schoolwork, project, case studies, etc.
and yes, certain hot boys.
HAHAHAHA.

fyi, imma repeat stud.
in the class now.
can't imagine a more boring class than the class you have learnt.
"______________"!!!!!!

you might be wondering why am i not doing the work.
reason is ive done it all last sem.
and i just hand to her whatever i did last sem.
cool or whaaaaaat!!!

and i know that im boring you as of now.
but i cant help it.
cause im totally bored to the core.
LIKE TOTALLY.

oh oh.
this is super duper random.
but i feel like donating my blood.
hahahahaha.

i guess i will blogging in approximately 1/2hr again.
ok bye!
(for now.)

2008-04-23T00:40:00.002+08:00

we have been on the hot rocks for a couple of days now.
it sucks, to the utmost core.
haiz.

in addition,
the boy told me that he might be sent to offshore.
to KOREA for 1WEEK.
haiz.

yeah, i know its just a week!
but ive never been away for more than 2days from him.
how people how?

i know i told ayu,
i came to senses with this overseas thing being part of the project scope and all.
but now,
i cant accept it aymore.

-conclusion-

i cant accept it.
yet, i cant reject it.
i'm pretty much stuck.

2008-04-05T01:33:00.008+08:00

i love my personal engineer. says:
whos sexier, me or jessica alba?
I Luv Nona gemok says:
u
i love my personal engineer. says:
really?
I Luv Nona gemok says:
yep
i love my personal engineer. says:
alaaaa sweet nyer
I Luv Nona gemok says:
well..
i love my personal engineer. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

heres another one.

I Luv Nona gemok says:
b
I Luv Nona gemok says:
oh b
i love my personal engineer. says:
dont want to slp until u promise me that you will eat my cooking only
I Luv Nona gemok says:
i promise i will eat ur cooking even though they are black brown or blue and if they are raw rare or over cooked

Awww.

Bacen nyer bertuah pei anak. -_-"

2008-04-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

maybe you're right after all.
maybe its cause im too attached to you.
maybe its cause you need your space.
maybe i'm boring you or vice versa.
maybe i need to stop and chill.
maybe i need a break from myself.
maybe i need to be alone.

theres alot of maybe.

one thing for sure,
i need to release all my bottled up feelings.